Saturday, October 6, 2007

Madame Tussaud's

A place I won't get to see for quite awhile that just opened up is Madam Tussuad's Washington, DC.

It is at the corner of 10th and F streets NW in the building that housed the former Mattress Discounters. It contains painted wax figures of the dead as well as the living.

Thomas Jefferson sticks his hand out in greeting and J. Edgar Hoover invites you to sit down.

The new Madame Tussuad's, the London Institution's 7th location, includes the visual array of showbiz and sports idols. But this wax museum is designed primarily for people interested in history.

There's the expected quota of Kennedys, Clintons, and Bushes.

The emphasis on politics actually returns Tussuad's to its roots. The Strasbourg-born madam came to prominence while crafting death masks of victims of the French Revolution. Later she moved to London, where the first Madame Tussuad's opened in 1835. The original attraction included a chamber of horrors that makes today's facsimiles of Beyonce and Tom Cruise seem tame.

The museum costs $25 to get in.

Friday, October 5, 2007

Ramen Noodles at Night

I had group. I didn't talk much because they talked about drugs and I know little about them.

I have to do my admissions poster this weekend.

Mrs. Shade gave us lots of homework to do, reading stuff and writing about it.

Lunch is soon. I will take my peanut butter and jelly out because yesterday lunch was good and today I am sure it won't be. You can't have god lunch two days in a row here. I hope no one wants to borrow my peanut butter and jelly because I can't be lending it out. It gets gone and no one gives me any more. I'm not giving out food anymore so people will like me. I'm just going to stay in my room and write. No use trying to socialize with them. I have nothing in common with them anyway.

My favorite commissary food is beans and rice. I eat a little everyday. It comes in a bag and can easily be divided into three or four servings. I put hot sauce on it and it reminds me of Chipolte. I also eat ramen noodles at night with everyone else (trying to be a part of) I get two servings out f every package.

Sunday, September 16, 2007

Anxiety Rising

I finally got my canteen and I have been eating a bunch of it.

I went to ACT. I had many more or one continuous anxiety attack.

Mrs. Shade sent me to the 11th floor. It is for the crazies.

They give me ativan and the attacks are going away and I sleep a whole bunch.

I have been on the 11th floor for four days now. I talked to the doctor here and I told her I am ready to go back. I even participated in a group. She called Mrs. Shade but she hasn't come up to see me.

It is Friday. Mrs. Shade came up and I get to go back tonight or Monday.

The doctor made sure I can go back tonight.

It is Saturday and I am back in ACT. They sent me back at 12PM. I am scared because the anxiety attacks are starting again. I hope they go away - if it is this Monday and I am still having the attacks I will try to hide them.

I've done a good job and no one suspects them.

It is Wednesday and they have pretty much stopped.

Saturday, September 15, 2007

Off Lockdown

We are off lockdown. I couldn't exercise for two whole days. Turns out it wasn't MSRA after all. The girl had an ingrown hair under her arms. She is fine.

Today my walking buddy was taken to Stafford for court. Hopefully they will bring her back. I already miss her. I feel bad for her cause she will have to sit all weekend down there and it is not only a nasty jail but she is a snitch and she is scarred to be in jail down there.

I had two anxiety attacks yesterday. They were really bad ones. I walked them off. MY counselors thought I handled them well.

I am going to ACT on Monday. My days will be full then. I won't have to stay in my cell all day. But the good thing is after I finish the four months of ACT I should be released. My judge said to come back and see her after I complete ACT and she lets everyone go. It should happen in January. Last Xmas I spent at Demeter House treatment center. This year I guess I am staying in jail.

Tuesday, September 4, 2007


There is a new pay you to blog service out there. Based in Copenhagen and beginning operations in March of 2007, Bloggerwave is paying bloggers for writing articles about their advertisers. There are three categories of opportunity, Review, Buzz, and Opinion.

It looks like Bloggerwave caters to new blogs as in their FAQ they talk about what a blog is and how to set one up. It only took a few days for them to approve my blog. I'm new and there were three opportunities for me on the first day. They had an opportunity for Coke Zero (though it required video), for Bloggerwave itself, and for a company that provides database information on different companies.

Sunday, September 2, 2007

Hotel Reservations

I'm once again looking out my window from my jail cell and thinking that there must be a better place to be staying than here in the Arlington County "Hilton". I do have a private room. I've got a window with a view.

I live like a Queen. I'm awoken each morning as the sun rises and brought my breakfast in bed. All I have and need is within a few feet of where I sleep. I have dozens of uniformed servants who attend to my every need. But still, I long for something else. Maybe something with a bit more freedom.

I want to tell you what I found in my quest for more. I found this website that offers Hotel Reservations and much more. They have hotels, motels, resorts, and more. They also have flights, cars, vacation rentals, vacation packages, and cruises. They offer what you need for beach hotels, family fun, gambling, golf, and spa.

When it comes to beaches, they have Corpus Christi from $69. Jacksonville from $69. Monterey from $100.

They have the Best Western Beachcomber Beach resort and hotel in St. Pete Beach, Florida from $89. The Resort Is Situated On More Than Five Acres Of Lush, Tropically Landscaped Gardens And Has Its Own Private Beach. Guests Can Unwind At The On-site Player's Sports Bar & Grille And Watch Sports On Three Wide-screen Televisions. This Resort Features Two Crystalline Pools Nestled Among The Expansive Gardens. Music Lovers Flock To The Live Music On The Adjacent Beach. Other Convenient Amenities Include A Small Fitness Room, Game Room, Wireless Internet Access And Guest Laundry.

The website also has a activities search that lets me know that if I am in the area what I can do. For instance for St. Petersburg the site tells me I can also visit Universal theme park as well as Busch Gardens, Seaworld, and other places I have not heard of such as Nature's World, Captain Memo's Pirate Cruise, and Wild Waters Park.

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Saturday, September 1, 2007

Walking Like A Caged Animal

My old roommate from general population got out last Saturday and now she is already back. She was out for three days and got picked up for drinking again. I see her in the other section with a really puffy face (from the alcohol) and walking like a caged animal.

Last night my new friend, April, made burritos using ramen noodles and cheese. She gave me one and it was good.

We have decided to treat each other every week with our food.

April is turning out to be a good friend. We walk an hour a day in the rec yard. And we talk a lot.

Friday, August 31, 2007

My Story, Part 3

My Story, Part 1, 2, 3

One thing I haven't mentioned was when I was about 12 I found myself fantasizing about women. Just wanting to be around them, not doing anything sexual. Just wanting to be good friends. I started to shy away from the other girls I thought were cute, ones I had infatuations about. I didn't know what or why I was having these feelings.

When I was 16 I read a book about Janis Joplin and I figured out I was a lesbian. I didn't know what to do about this. I kept seeing my boyfriend (who I didn't like sex with). We didn't drink or drug.

So I went to college and got married to my boyfriend. (I told him I was a lesbian and he said I'd grow out of it.)

I started working a job in the carpet industry as an industrial engineer and went to school nights.
I did really well at work and school. I kept getting promoted at work. My last promotion was to a department run by a man named Jeff. He introduced me to crank/crystal meth. We also had an affair. We would constantly go to clubs downtown drinking and drugging. I thought for the first time in my life that I belonged. But I still wanted women.

My Story, Part 1, 2, 3

Thursday, August 30, 2007

My Story, Part 2

My Story, Part 1, 2, 3

After this first buzz I would sometimes find wherever my Mother's Dad was hiding his liquor and me and my brother would drink it. Sometimes I would also drink the beer that was in the tool shed refrigerator. But I would just only drink til I got a buzz, never enough to get drunk.

My Mother got cancer when I was a freshman in high school. She had surgery then got chemo and radiation. She never was exactly well after that. She had a remission period but was always sickly after that. I had to cook and clean after that and it didn't give me time for many extracurricular activities at school.

The last Christmas she was alive I was 17 and we went to my grandmother's house for Christmas eve. My uncle poured me a drink and I drank it and a whole lot more. I got really sick from the booze and stayed up all night. My Mother had been sleeping on the couch for days. She would sleep sitting up because she had lung cancer and couldn't lay down and not cough. We sat together and watched "The Trouble with Angels" a movie on TV. We talked and my mom was honest with me that she would die soon and I had to go on to college and have a good life.

She died in the middle of January (the 17th). I had to pick out the coffin, arrange for the service and pick out clothes for my Mother to wear. I had to go shopping for my brother so he would have something to wear to the service. My aunts helped me. My Dad couldn't be bothered.

After my Mother died my Father started coming to my door and scratching on it to try and get me to open up. It scared me. So I moved in with one of my cousins to get me through high school. I graduated with a 3.9 GPA.

That summer I spent with my Aunt in Florida. They owned a fishing camp with a boat, cabins, and some convention store.

My uncle taught me to drink beer. I got drunk a couple of times.

When fall came I went to my grandmother's and started college.

My Story, Part 1, 2, 3

Wednesday, August 29, 2007

Not the sharpest pencils in the box

Some of the people I have met here in the jail are, well to put it bluntly, not the sharpest pencils in the box. And I don't mean just the inmates. Things might have been different had they had an Innovative Tutor like can be found at SCORE! I know I don't want my kids to turn out that way, so I intend to take advantage of the programs SCORE! has.

There are special programs in reading, writing, math, and study skills that can help my kids out. I intend to sign my kids up for these innovative tutoring programs.

Tuesday, August 28, 2007

My Story, Part 1

My Story, Part 1, 2, 3

I was born at Fort McPherson in Atlanta, Georgia. I grew up in a middle class family. My Dad was a postman and my Mother stayed at home. I had a brother Chuck, who was 2 years younger. We lived in the suburbs of Atlanta.

My Mother always told me I wasn't good enough. She was always comparing me to the other girls in the community. She called me "backward" a lot which I guess is true because I have always been an introvert.

My parents didn't drink and there was never any alcohol in the house.

As far as alcoholics in my extended family go I had one grandmother (Dad side) of the family and two grandfathers that drank to excess. My Father's brother was a big alcoholic as well as two uncles on my Mom's side as well as one of my Mother's sisters. I guess you can say I come by alcoholism naturally.

When I was 12 or 13 my grandparents celebrated their 50th wedding anniversary. My relatives were celebrating with pink champagne. I got a glass. that was leftover and this was my first drink. I drank maybe three leftover cups and I got my first buzz.

My Story, Part 1, 2, 3

Monday, August 27, 2007

Jail Math

When will I get out? Jail time is a hard thing to add up in my head. It is as if we all need Math Tutors to help us figure out how much time we will spend in here.

I have a friend who spent 30 days in jail on the weekends, so he had 10 weekends to serve where he spent Friday and Saturday night in jail with each stay lasting 48 hours. At first glance I counted 10 times 2, or 20 days, but apparently I was wrong and it was 30 days. If I had a misdemeanor DUI and had six months to serve, then I would be out in three months.
As it is, I have 12 months to serve and I think I am supposed to serve every day of it. I just can't figure out the math.

My children will go to SCORE! so they can have a math tutor who can help them figure all of this out. I would not want them to be stuck and not know how to figure out the length of time for their sentence in jail.

Saturday, August 25, 2007

My Friend April

Today is Saturday. I slept til 11 am. On Saturdays and Sundays we get to sleep in. Then we watch movies. This unit is so much better than General Population.

Today I learned how to play rummy. I found it to be pretty boring. I like poker better.

I started my canteen requests today. I have to stop ordering so much stuff. I ordered ramen noodles, a hair removal cream, and a comb. I also got a bag of pretzels and some oatmeal.

I walked for over an hour today with my new friend April. She is also in here on a DUI charge as well as a possession charge. She is a lesbian (as I am) and has a girlfriend she is desperately afraid will dump her - They met each other in jail and have been together for four years. The girlfriend Lisa has done three years in prison.

It scares me that most of the women here keep coming back to jail. We have 14 people in the community and only two of us have never been to jail. I think I will kill myself before I come back to jail.

Well its 6:30 pm and time to lock down.

Friday, August 24, 2007

Alzheimer's Walk Team Captains

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I'm concerned about Alzheimer's disease not only because I know one day I too will be old, but because I know what it is like to have memory loss. As an alcoholic I have blackouts where I remember nothing. There are many gaps in my memory now, and I don't even have Alzheimer's.

Alzheimer’s disease is a brain disorder named for German physician Alois Alzheimer, who first described it in 1906. More than 5 million Americans now have Alzheimer’s. Although symptoms can vary widely, the first problem many people notice is forgetfulness severe enough to affect their work, lifelong hobbies or social life.

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Thursday, August 23, 2007

Four Weeks of Monarch

I feel really strange today. I am feeling anxious and nervous I am thinking about the past too much.

We had a fight in the women's general population the other night. They shut the whole jail down when that happens. Fortunately it was at night so just went to sleep.

In our unit the other night a girl had one of her pictures picked up and destroyed (tearing it into little pieces and throwing it in the trash.) So we got locked down because no one would own up to it. The deputy thinks it was the girl who tore up her own picture.

Then we to a group of really young (early 20's) girls who sit and joke and make fun of people both in and out of the meetings. They are especially cruel to some of the women who bring Alcoholics Anonymous meetings into the unit. So we all got a long lecture on behaving properly yesterday. - Then we went to another group and they started acting out again. I just hope only they get in trouble instead of the whole unit.

Well, I have completed four weeks of Monarch (comes before ACT) now. Only four more to go. They say when you hit ACT time really goes by fast. I hope so.

Wednesday, August 22, 2007

Reading Tutors

Have you ever thought your child needed help from Reading Tutors?

I would not know how to live if my child did not have the ability to read fast with great comprehension of the material. I read all the time. Here in jail I sometimes read four books a day. I could not live without being able to read. I want my child to have good reading skills as well.

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Tuesday, August 21, 2007

Looking out my window

Today I am really feeling like I'm not going to make it in here. My mind is still foggy from the alcohol and I know I need about 6 months of uninterrupted sobriety to stay sober when I get out. I'll probably have eight or nine months when I get out of here. That is a good amount of time to have under your belt. Still when I think of the time it seems so overwhelming.

Three people are about to leave and go home. So we have three new people in. One of them likes to read so we have been exchanging books.

I tried to call my cousin Robert, but he does not answer the phone. He hasn't come by for a visit since a week ago yesterday. He was going to Atlantic City the past weekend. I hope nothing is wrong.

I've been looking out the window a lot. I'm not keen on the summer months, the heat always bothers me but fall is coming and I like the fall. There really aren't any trees in my view so I won't get to see the changing of the weather. At least I'll be able to see the snow in the winter. Hopefully I will be out in February.

Monday, August 20, 2007

Cheap Flights to Canada

If I were to beak out of jail here, where could I go? How about Canada? It worked for the folks who wanted to avoid Vietnam. I've only got a DUI. Surely the good folks in Canada can be forgiving of my crime.

There is a company called DialAFlight that offers Flights to Canada, apparently cheaply. They commonly have flights to Toronto from London. All I have to do is figure out how to get from Washington, DC to London and soon I will have my freedom and enjoy the first of many Holidays to Canada.

Even if I can't break out of the jail here, I can still use flights to Canada to avoid my probation. DailAFlight offers Cheap Flights that will allow me to not only visit Toronto, but also see the
nearby Niagara Falls. And the Arlington probation office will not supervise me if I am living out of state. So I am looking forward to using Toronto Flights as a way to escape my legal difficulties here.

If I get lucky, they will have good Holiday Offers available the month I get out, (that means vacation offers to those of you who don't speak British.) Since I am from Georgia, I can visit Calgary, the home of the Atlanta Flames Hockey team. It will be new and exciting and maybe they will even let me have a driver's license since I can't get one here.

Sunday, August 19, 2007

Another Day in Paradise

Well today I got in trouble for not having a bra on. I hate wearing bras but I have been wearing one on & off. The trouble today was I was washing it. Still they are going to try and get me another one from property. There are no men anywhere in sight so I don't know what the big deal is.

I am feeling especially nervous today. I try to put things in perspective but it doesn't work. I have to do 8 weeks in Monarch then 4 months of 16 weeks in ACT. Then it will take me another 3 weeks to get out of here. So far I am on the 3rd week so I will be 1/2 way through Monarch at the end of next week. Then after I do 1 month in ACT I will be 1/2 way through.

I haven't cried since I have been here. They are making me write an autobiography which is the same as telling your story. Considering all the treatment centers I have been through I have written an autobiography many times & it usually drives me to tears. This time it is like I am just over it, like I have no regrets.

Today is Monday so we just finished the weekend. The weekends here are pretty good cause you get to sleep in til 11:00 am both days. We have only a couple of groups & they bring in movies to watch. They don't do that in general population.

Anyway its just another day in paradise.

Saturday, August 18, 2007

Help with starting a corporation

My online business is starting to take off. I think I made around $36 last month from PayPerPost, LOL. Maybe I made a little more. I have PayperPost and Google ads as my primary sources of income. I think I got 28 cents from Google last month. I do have one poker affiliate program, but I have not made anything off of it. I did sign up for a online checking account from Wachovia and they gave me $25 as I recall. I tried to sign up with ReviewMe, but they would not accept my blog; I'm not sure why.

But what if my little jail cell based business started to really take off and I need to incorporate? How would I do it? I could use a company like to create a corporation in Texas, Nevada, Florida, or even for Arizona incorporations. They can take care of all the paperwork for me and I never even have to get a pass to visit the law library.

Since I obviously cannot have clients come and meet me here at the jail, I could use their virtual office. Not only can they help with all the paperwork, but they can also provide a space to start a business. They have a program for virtual offices and executive suites. I can basically use their office with free phones and Internet. I could use their conference room (well, I could if I was not in jail.) And it all starts at $45 per month. Great for start ups like me.

I could use this service to have a virtual office in Arizona and they would forward all of my mail to me here in the jail. Their receptionist would answer my office number and take messages for me, much better than someone calling the jail here and being told by the deputy that I am not allowed to have phone calls.

A little tongue in cheek humor in this article, but obviously it is something to think about when I get out of jail for my DUI and have to live in the world and make money. This company might be a thing for me to look into.

Friday, August 17, 2007

Entering the Act Unit

I am now in the "ACT" unit of the jail. The "ACT" unit is a drug/alcohol treatment center in the jail. So now I not only have the rules of the jail to follow, but I also have the rules of the unit to follow.

I am not in the "ACT" program now. For eight weeks I have to be in the "Monarch" program.

Basically in Monarch you don't go to many groups & you have to stay in your room a lot.
After 3PM we get to usually spend a couple hours in the rec area.

In the rec area I ride the bike and walk. I try to ride the bike for at least an hour (broken down into (2) 30 minutes sessions or (3) 20 minute sessions.) Exercise has always calmed my nerves & I have been a little nervous lately.

There are 9 people on the unit (includes me.) 5 are in "ACT" & 4 are in "Monarch." It is a lot more quiet down here. We don't do shut downs too much. We have our own rooms or cells.

My biggest problem right now is I just can't fathom being here 7 or 8 more months. It is very overwhelming & I try to do this one day at a time but my mind keeps on thinking about all the time I have left. I am an emotional wreck.

Thursday, August 16, 2007

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Sunday, August 5, 2007

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Wednesday, August 1, 2007

Will I drink again?

I have a roommate. In general population everyone has a roommate. We sleep on bunk beds. My roommate is 37, white, and even though she says she has never had a felony she has spent a good part of her life in jails. She is an alcoholic (just like me.) She is homeless and doesn't even have an ID of any sort. She panhandles for money. Let's call her Jane.

Jane is locked up this time for drinking in public. She has to serve 90 days. When on the streets if a cop from Arlington County sees her they automatically give her a breathalyzer & if she blows anything they take her to jail. The cops all know her. She has been banned from Ballston Mall here in Arlington County. She apparently is a mean drunk. The reason I am writing about her is the minute she gets out she will drink. That's what she dreams of, a cigarette and a beer, knowing the cops will take her back to jail.

I just don't know why she will drink knowing she will just have to go back to jail. Will this be me as well? Will I drink knowing I will have to serve 2 more years? I don't want to spend more time here, this is driving me crazy. I pray I won't drink again.

Saturday, July 28, 2007

How Jail Is

I wasn't sure what I thought jail would be like. I sorta thought it would be old and dirty and the women would fight a lot and they might beat me up or rape me or something.

But it isn't like that. The jail is clean and new and the women sometimes argue among themselves sometimes coming close to blows but never getting there. I have come in contact with a couple who were downright mean and I wanted to hit cause of the mean things they said to me.

Still a lot of the women are OK to me, usually nice. I don't usually eat everything on my trays (meals) & I make friends by giving things away.

Today for whatever reason they kept us locked down (in our cells) for most of the day. It’s been this way all week. I sit and read. I can read a book & some more every day which is bad cause they only let us go to the library once a week & you can only get 4 books at a time. I reread them after I finish them. My dreaded fear is that I will not have anything to read & be stuck with my own faults for days on end. I spend enough time thinking about how bad I have screwed up my life. It makes me think about killing myself even more.

Friday, July 27, 2007

Paintball Guns

Over ten million people play paintball annually in the US alone. Paintball is a sport where participants eliminate opponents with paintballs from a compressed gas gun, called a marker. Games can be played indoors or outdoors and the various versions of the game go by names such as woodsball, scenario, and speedball.

I found this company, Ultimate Paintball, that sells paintball products. They sell Tippmann, Spyder, Smart Parts, Dye, and Draxxus paintball gear plus many more brands which you can find on their website.

Their top selling paintball guns are Tippmann A-5, Tippmann 98 Custom, Smart Parts Ion, and Spyder Pilot ACS.

Tipmann A-5

The Tipmann A-5 is a high performance paintball marker with a patented feed system that feeds paintballs faster as you shoot faster. The marker is easy to clean and maintain with it's no tool strip feature. The gun has options to shoot fully automatic, 3 round burst, turbo, or semi. With the WAS board installed on the Egrip the A5 is capable of firing 25+ Balls Per Second.

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  • New Tippmann A5 Marker
  • Cyclone Ammo Hopper
  • A5 Flatline Barrel and Standard Barrel
  • A5 WAS Board Egrip
  • Tippmann A5 Double Trigger
  • A5 Tactical 6 position Adjustable Stock
  • UFD Heavy Duty Coiled Remote with Quick Disconnect On/Off
  • Padded Gun Case
  • JT Elite Goggles with Anti Fog Lens and Visor
  • New Premium 20 oz CO2 Tank with pin valve
  • Aluminum Thread Protector for Tank
  • Black 6+1 Deluxe Paintball Harness
  • 6 - 140 Round Heavy Duty Pods
  • Premium 1oz Oil
  • PhyscoBallistics Heavy Duty Jerk Squeegee
  • Allen Wrenches
  • Standard Gun Oil
  • Tippmann Barrel Condom
  • 2 Cleaning Cables for Flatline and for Standard
  • Operators Manual
  • Full One Year Warranty From Tippmann

Sunday, July 22, 2007

Six Weeks

Well, here I am at the Arlington County jail. I have been here for six weeks now. It really doesn't seem that long in some ways but every day seems to last forever.

I am here cause I got my 3rd DUI in 5 years. I almost didn't pick up the charge because I only blew a .08. The possible sentence for this was 6 months to 5 years. I got a year. My sentence was a lot worse than my lawyer thought it should be. I have to admit to being shocked over it.

I thought they might send me to the penitentiary but the judge wants me to do a treatment program in the jail called ACT. (What it stands for I don't know). I might get out a little early if I complete the program. I've been told that if I don't complete the program I might do the extra two years that were suspended. I am scared I won't be able to complete the program cause of something I screw up & lately I have trouble completing things.

I stay in fear lately. My stomach stays in knots. I worry I won't be able to make it the year. (I contemplate suicide.) I worry about what life will be on the outside as a convicted felon. I usually wish I had killed myself before I came in here.

Saturday, July 21, 2007

Alexa Rankings

Alexa has this ranking system that determines how popular a website is. Since I am at, I was initially raked 16th in popularity of all websites in world because that is where blogspot is. Then I installed this Alexa widget on the left of each page and began to have my own place in the world wide web.

So now today, Saturday, July 21, 2007 I am ranked at 1,882,058 of all websites in the world. I just need more people to visit my site for the statistics to shoot up higher. Looking at how Alexa works, while more people can give me a big jump in numbers, what will really help is if the existing visitors view multiple pages on my site. Right now Alexa claims the average visitor views 1.6 pages per visit. If I can get this to double, then my reach and rank will shoot up by 50%.

If I keep getting visitors I think I can move my rank up to the 500,000 range in the next few weeks. We'll see.

Friday, July 20, 2007

My Daily Veggies

As an alcoholic I never get all the vitamins I need. I'd like to be able to eat more vegetables, but the truth is I'm more into drinking my lunch than chewing it. That is why My Daily Veggies drink mix from Lane Labs is great for those like me in recovery who tend to relapse. Just one packet mixed with six ounces of room temperature water gives my body the boost it needs and relishes what the alcohol takes out of me. I can keep a few packets of this next to my bedside and I never even have to go into the kitchen to cook.

Now I can Drink My Daily Veggies and avoid the mess of preparing vegetables, or the mess of cleaning up a juicer. This will be great for camping which I intend to do once I get out of Jail for my DUI. It's a great camping food and much better than lugging real vegetables around in my backpack.

My Daily Veggies is mad from whole dried vegetables, not juice, with only 35 calories per serving. My Daily Veggies contains no added sugar, salt, or preservatives. You get the same fiber, the same vitamins, the same minerals, enzymes and phytonutrients as real fresh (or canned or frozen) vegetables. The only things missing are the salt and sugar that many manufacturers add when they process foods.

The ingredients include: Dried whole carrot powder, dried whole pumpkin concentrate (seedless), dried green and white whole cabbage powder, dried zucchini powder, dried red bell pepper powder, freeze-dried cucumber powder, standardized freeze-dried whole vegetable and vegetable extract blend (broccoli, broccoli sprout extract, tomato, carrot, spinach, kale, onion extract, sulforaphane, lycopene, beta-carotene, lutein, glucosinolates, onion flavonoids)

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Thursday, July 19, 2007

Central Park is Closed

I try to exercise here in the jail. One of the things I do is walk. We do not have access to anything that is outside in the open air. Even our basketball court is inside the high rise. There is a section of chain link fencing near the top of the outer wall that is open to the outside of the building, but there is no way to even experience life outside the walls.

So, when I walk for exercise, I walk inside. All of the female deputies are OK with this. But we have this one male guard who will not let me walk. When I try to walk he tells me Central Park is closed.

Yesterday I was not able to make any phone calls. We were on lockdown all day. There was something wrong with one of the door locks so they just shut us up all day.

Wednesday, July 18, 2007

Perfume deals

I found another site, Keep Cash, with promo codes for all sorts of products. They have deals and coupons for stores like, shop4tech, Dell, NewEgg,, The Shade store, Brookstone, World of Watches, and more.

For instance, there are coupons. offers the largest inventory of genuine, brand name fragrances, skincare, candles, aromatherapy and more at the lowest possible prices. The coupon codes on the site allow for 10% off a purchase, or free shipping, or other savings.

I used to sell perfumes on eBay. Back then I sold unused bottles that I had received as gifts. I needed money and was trying to get rid of some stuff I had. I notice that has a wholesale program where they drop ship perfume. Maybe I should get back into the perfume business again. They also have an affiliate program. Either way I could start up an online perfume business.

But as far as perfumes for now, they sell all brands including White Diamonds, Fendi, Casual, Sung, Jessica McClintock, Euphoria, L'air Due Temps, Tommy Bahama, Exceptional, Noa Perle.

They also have a full selection of minis, like the mini Paloma Picasso in the .16 oz size. This fragrance was introduced in 1984 and has many florals along with citrus, woods, and greens. This is an intense scent for evening use and you can expect it to last about 16 or more hours.


Today was commissary day. Yesterday some people went to the library, but I didn't get a library slip. That is about all here is to the week except for TV, meals, and sleep. Jail is boring.

Next week I should be moving to the other side so I can start my ACT classes and begin to get out of here in a few months.

Monday, July 16, 2007


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Saturday, July 14, 2007

My head is not fuzzy

I have a rash on my face. It is embarrassing. I get this when I am nervous. I am filled with anxiety and despair. It's bad depression, but somehow not as bad as when I was on the anti-depression drugs. They won't give me my regular medications in here.

My head seems clearer, not as fuzzy as when I am taking my meds. Maybe I should not take my meds any more ever. I like my head being clear. I just wish my anxiety would go away. What I really want is to die.

Friday, July 13, 2007

Innovative Tutor

If you want an innovative tutor for your child, try SCORE! Educational Centers. I have one just down the street from me in the Giant Shopping Center in West Falls Church.

Score has a 16 session study skills class that teaches
  • Time Management
  • Different types of Learning Styles
  • Test Preparation
  • Processing Information
When I have children, I plan to send them to Score to build their confidence and to do homework in a timely manner.

Ready for ACT

I learned today that I will not get transferred into the ACT progam until Monday, July 23, which is more than a week away. The ACT program will be substance abuse treatment for my DUI, then I will be able to ask the judge to get out of jail once this is over.

Still I have to wait a week with almost nothing to do. I stayed in bed all day today. I can't sleep, but I stayed in bed.

Peapod - Free Groceries

I found a new website with online coupons. provides coupons for over 1,500 online stores, inclding some of the largest and best. For instance, Peapod provides $10 in free groceries to first time customers.

In my area, Peapod is serviced by Giant Foods. Peapod has grown to be one of America's leading Internet grocers. Peapod is a wholly owned subsidiary of international food provider Royal Ahold, and works in partnership with Ahold USA supermarket companies including Stop & Shop and Giant Food.

Books and TV

The main way to spend my time in jail is to read books and watch TV. Yesterday I read four books. Today I fight with other inmates over which channel to watch on TV. Whoever get sto the TV first controls it. I don't get to watch what I wish very often.

There is nothing to do here. It is very boring. Jail is a punishment of isolation where we are sent as punishment. The slice of time taken from our lives, in my case nearly a year, is our punishment. At least that is the traditional view. TV, books, excersize equipment and more is used as a way of keeping the peace and controlling us. Being here is the punishment.

Then there is another school of thought that suggest we are not sent here AS punishment, but rather we are sent here FOR punishment. I do not need more torture. Being here is puishment enough.

Thursday, July 12, 2007

Math Tutors

I have a friend who had trouble with math when he was 11 and in sixth grade. I wonder if he could have been helped by math tutors.

The poor child just didn't know how to take a test. He isn't dumb. In fact he is one of the smartest people I know. But he did really, really bad on this standardized test, so in 6th grade they put him into remedial math classes. Two years later he taught himself Calculus and became a wiz at higher math.

I see it as a failing of our educational system that no teacher could take the time to realize how brilliant this guy was, but just understand he did not know how to take a test. Learning how to take a test can be as important as knowing how to do the work.

When I have children, I'll find a place like Score, and get them a math tutor.

Even more blog friends

This is really nice. I post on bulletin boards about my blog and people keep saying hello to me and welcoming me to the blogging community. Here are some new friends I have met today:

Lisa - My Thoughts, Ideas, and Ramblings
My new blog friend Lisa has another friend who is expecting twins. Lisa has wo family members who also want a dog. I'm assuming the events are unrelated.

Marissa - Marisa's Dandelion Patch
My new friend Marissa is the West Virginia Mother of an addict. She is very, very polite. Marissa is trying to get out of debt. She also thinks that Paris Hilton should not have been arrested for drunk driving. Her reasoning is sound, even if politically incorrect. We need more like her in the world.

Josh - The Sankey Stories
Josh is writing about sports, when his wife lets him.

Hotel Reservations

I recently found this great website that has Cheap Hotels.

They have different offerings like hotels, motels, resorts, vacations rentals etc. The pricing is very competative as the rates have great discounts on world wide destinations.

A friend of mine likes to stay in Atlantic City. On the weekends not only are the casino rooms not available, but they are very expensive. You have to have another place to stay if you are going to Atlantic City. Nearby Absecon is just up the road. The hotel sites claim it is five miles from the casino, but they are counting from the Marina casinos. Absecon is about eight miles form the Boardwalk casinos. You can' t walk, but this is a very short drive.

They have a Friday night rate of $99 for the Deluxe Inn (in Absecon). My friend has stayed at the Superlodge before, they rate listed there is $100 for Friday night. The city of Absecon is just 8 miles up the road from the Showboat casino. Just drive straight out of the entrance to Showboat and all the cheap hotels are on that road. It is easy to stay at a cheap room in Absecaon and drive each day to the casino to play.

The Deluxe Inn has
  • Complimentary coffee in the lobby
  • Complimentary parking
  • Complimentary wireless Internet access
  • Microwave ovens
  • Refrigerators

The SuperLodge has

  • Complimentary continental breakfasts
  • Complimentary wireless Internet access
  • Complimentary parking
  • DVD players
  • Microwave ovens
  • Refrigerators

This website,, has special Internet rates. What are special Internet rates? Special Internet Rates save you money. Because of the large number of lodging reservations they process, is able to negotiate special rates with the properties. They guarantee their Special Internet Rates are the lowest you can find. To secure your reservation at this low rate, they require up-front payment with your credit card. Booking a room marked as a Special Internet Rate gives you both savings and security. You can't beat that!

Don't forget to book your reservation with when you travel next time. Maybe I will see you in Atlantic City one day.

Accepted into the ACT Program

I had my interview and now I am accepted into the ACT program here at Arlington County Jail. Soon I will be moving into the other women's unit. This means that when I finish the program I can ask the judge to let me out of jail "early".

I've been told my judge sentences everyone this way and forces them to go to the ACT program.

I Love Pay Per Post

After about two weeks of waiting, I finally got approved for Pay Per Post (PPP) marketplace assignments. This means I can choose from posted opportunities that I will be paid to write about. I get paid $10 just for writing this blog entry. On the first page of the opportunities page there are $52 worth of assignments I qualify for.

Now I am a postie who writes ads on blogs. It is an interesting way to make money. I don' t have to have transportation or leave where I am, just post blog entries here. I can do up to three assignments per day. think I am going to like this.

Wednesday, July 11, 2007

More Blog Friends

I'm getting to know some people with blogs. Here are my new friends for today.

Just Julies Journal
Julie is a newlywed who is telling her secrets to the web.

The Inconvienent Truth
Leigh is helping to put an end to violence against women and their children. She engages in meaningful dialog about whatever it is that clutters her heart and mind.

The Bon Pecheur Blog
A Father of three girls tries to become a Dad.

Friday, July 6, 2007

Four Weeks

Today, Friday makes four weeks that I have been in jail. One of the gretaest problems I face is the uncertainty of when I get out and what will happen to me then. I'm here for a DUI. It's my third one in less than five years.

My actual sentence is a year. But I think I can get out earlier. I don't really know. I was told that if I woudl complete an in jail substance abuse program, called ACT, I can see the judge again. Presumably that means I can get released earlier. The ACT program is four months.

After being here for four weeks I have not been interviewed to be in the ACT program. For the first two weeks or so my case worker kept telling me he had no paperwork to indicate I should go to ACT. Now at least they have found my card. But still no interview.

So far I have moved from the medical unit to the main women's unit. I've not been allowed to go to any classes or Bible studies. I've not been able to get my interview for ACT.

Maybe they will not ever let me out. I'm really worried.

Thursday, July 5, 2007

Blog Friends

I'm trying to get to know about some other blogs. I found one called where the owner talks about pc games, movies, sports (lots of NBA), and music. He has a variety of tips about Winamp. I mainly use my iPod now, but I like Winamp and still use it on my PC some.

Another blog I have found is Skeet's Stuff, who is s true southerner who lives in Hawaii. She blogs about gardening, root beer floats, and M.C. Escher.

Tuesday, July 3, 2007

Let me write a web page for you

I will post a web page about your product or service on my blog for only $5. A third party company, Pay per Post, will handle the money. This includes a link back to your website. Hire Me via PayPerPost Direct!

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Pay Per Post problems

I'm having trouble with this new website called Pay Per Post that pays people to post ads on blogs. They did not approve me for marketplace ads, only direct ads. Apparently, my website is not indexed by the search engines. I need to fix this. It is ok because they gave me instructions:

Thank you for your blog submission! Unfortunately, we are unable to accept your entry because your blog is not being indexed by search engines. There may be a setting somewhere that you need to change with your host. If not, below are two web sites our users have used to help them in the process. After trying this, periodically go to Google and type "site:" Once your site appears in the search results, please re-submit your blog for review. Thank you!

So I have submited my website to Google. We will have to see if it shows up or not. Then they will pay me.

Monday, July 2, 2007

Visit From Tiffany

Tiffany came by to see me today. She is not a visitor, but she is from the county. I was going to one of her groups before I came to jail. I like Tiffany. Of the various therapists I have dealt with over the last 10 years, she is the best I have had.

I'm not sure why Tiffany came by. I don't think it was for an interview for me to get into ACT. She says she has nothing to do with ACT and cannot help me get into it. Tiffany told me I should get into the ACT progam, finish ACT, and get out of here.

Someone from the ACT program told me they would be giving me an interview this week. I hope that the holiday does nto mess that up. Friday will make a month I have been sitting here waiting to get into ACT.

Sunday, July 1, 2007

Absolute Poker Affiliate Program

I joined my first affiliate program, and I am now one of the Absolute Poker Affiliates. This means that if people want to get an account on Absolute Poker then I get a few pennies every time they play poker or blackjack.

I am not sure if I will make anything from this or not. What I am hoping for at first is to get other people to aign up as my affiliates, then I will mak a few pennies everytime they make some money.

We'll see how it goes.

Saturday, June 30, 2007

Credit Card Due

I hought I had paid all of my credit card bills. It turns out there is one I did not take care of. Apparently I made a $5.02 purchase at CVS a few days before I went to jail. Now I owe money.

I don't have any money to pay the bill, nor do I have any way to pay the bill if I had the money. I'll get a late fee on my credit card and if it continues, I'll owe hundreds when I get out.

I don't have stamps. I don't have much of anything.

Tuesday, June 26, 2007

Daily Classes

Here in jail I've been told I can start going to two classes. One is on alchohol, the other a Bible study. It gives me something to do. I still have not heard anything about getting into the ACT program. Of course, I haven't actually been to wither of these two classes either.

They are supposed to call me out for my classes, but it's been a week and I have yet to be able to go to either one.

I just don't know if I can make it in here for 12 months. There is nothing to do. I just don't think I can make it.

Monday, June 25, 2007

Pay Per Post

I make money by getting paid to write articles on my blog for a company called Pay Per Post (PPP). Pay Per Post agregates writing assignments from different companies onto their web site and allows you to select the assignments that match your site and appeal to you.

At any given time there are about 80+ assignments available that pay anywhere from $5 to over $300. You get paid for writing an average of 100 words and including a link to the advertiser's website. You even get paid $10 for your first 100 word writing assignment about Pay Per Post. (Payments are made through PayPal)

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Saturday, June 23, 2007

Posting in Absentia

I was given a sentence for my DUI that has a release date of May 2008. I can't get to a computer, so someone else is typing this for me. I'm about broke, all I have is $12 in my account.

The idea here is to try to monetize this blog and have some money when I get out of jail. Maybe to even give me some spending money while I am in jail.

Friday, June 22, 2007

In the big house

Today they moved me to the general population and gave me a room, with a roomate. She is not nice to me and wants me to sleep on the top bunk.

Because I had surgery on my arm a few days ago, I can't get into the top bunk. I'm going to ask if I can change to another room and sleep on the bottom bunk.

The Deputy says there is nothing in my file that says I have a problem with my arm.

Monday, June 18, 2007

Visits in Jail

I was staying Demeter House with some other women for a while. We were all there getting treatment for substance abuse problems. One of my new friends from there came to visit me recently after I went to jail here in Arlington County Virginia. They would not let her in to visit me in jail because she did not have a license, or other identification.

Visiting times are every day, which is nice. But I have no one to visit me.

Visiting times are:
3:30 p.m. to 6:30 p.m. Monday through Friday.
On Saturday and Sunday 9:00 a.m. to 6:30 p.m. and then from 7:30 p.m. to 9:00 p.m.

Friday, June 8, 2007


Today the court sentenced me to serve a jail term. My release date is May 2008, which means I've got a year. There is a substance abuse program, called ACT, that I can take here at the Arlington County jail. The Act program lasts for maybe six months. The judge said once I complete ACT to come and see her again about getting released early.

I suppose the judge actually sentenced me to the ACT program, but since she cannot require me to complete it, she gave me the year with the reduction as incentive to complete the program.

Sunday, June 3, 2007

No Car

Part of the legal process is that I have lost my driver's license. As a consequence, I have sold my car because I don't need it in jail, and I won't be getting my license back for three years. That is three years after I get to court.

I've gone to the DMV and gotten my "walking license", which is what they call an ID card here.

Saturday, June 2, 2007

Poker with a Dummy

I've tried playing Texas Hold'em poker, but I really can't play that well. I've been staying in an in-patient treatment facility and on my weekly visits my friend brings cards and chips and we play three handed poker. It's me and him and a "dummy" player to keep it from being just us two. I don't win that much. On a lot of the hands the dummy even beats me and takes my chips.

I'm going to start practicing online at Absolute Poker and see if I can get any better.

Another site that talks about poker is

Give them a try and let me know what you think.

Friday, June 1, 2007


My lifestyle tends to have me packing up all my belongings and putting them into or out of storage on a regular basis. A couple of years ago I found myself needing money and learned how to sell some of my junk on eBay. The main thing I sold at first was perfume people had given me that was still new in the box. To do this I needed Paypal. Once my existing junk started selling I began buying new things and selling them.

I never really got a business going with it, but it did give me a few hundred dollars when I really needed it. I'd reccomend Paypal to everyone.

Sign up for PayPal and start accepting credit card payments instantly.

Sunday, May 20, 2007


These meds I am taking now seem to keep me fuzzy so I can't think clearly. At least they help me sleep. Every time I get a new doctor I get new meds. It's like no one really knows what they are doing and they just giv eme something and see what happens.

Thursday, May 17, 2007

Driver's License

I need an ID card. I have to get someone to bring me my birth certificate and other documents. I need may marraige license. Virgina is very strict about what you need to get an ID.

I hope I can get a pass to go get an ID.

Wednesday, May 16, 2007

Chipolte Dreams

My favorite restaurant is Chipolte. I like the veggie burrito and I like to put the major portion of a bottle of green Tabasco sauce on one. I get it with black beans.

It's been months since I have had one. I wish I could go to eat there. There is no way they will give me a pass to go there. It is just not part of the program.

When I get out, the first thing I will do is go to Chipolte.

Tuesday, May 15, 2007

What to do on a visit?

On visiting days I get my mail brought to me. I usually get a magazine in the mail, and some bills. I also get cigarettes, and sometimes some money. I'm broke. We get to go to the Rite Aid drugstore and buy things, but we have to have money.

I need things like cigarettes, hair color, and conditioner.

Here they will not let us have food on visits, so no pizza. No chinese food. I can't even have a Coke. I can only imagine that jail is worse.

Thursday, May 10, 2007

The Once and Future Jail

What I have to look forward to is jail.

The Arlington County Sheriff's Office is one of the most technically advanced Direct Supervision facilities in the country. It was the first urban high-rise jail to be run under direct supervision within the state of Virginia and is visited regularly by Corrections Officials from around the world. The non-jail like appearance of the Detention Facility camouflages an extensive high tech security system. In the design and construction of the facility, key factors were the safety and security of the staff, public, and inmates.

The Arlington County Detention Facility is run on the basic principals of Direct Supervision. A great deal of emphasis is placed on the empowerment of our staff members. Our highly trained Staff effectively manage an average daily inmate population of approximately 625 inmates. Our facility also places a great deal of emphasis on teaching inmates self-sufficiency and real life skills in order to reduce the rate of recidivism. Our facility employs a total of approximately 260 staff members, 200 being Correctional Staff. Correctional Staff are Certified as Virginia State Law Enforcement Officers.

Monday, May 7, 2007

Visits at Demeter

Now that I have been here for 30 days they will let me have visitors. We get one visit each week. It's on Thursday at 7PM. The visits are held in a Methodist Church that is nearby.

They take all of us who are getting visits to the Church at 8PM and we get to visit until 9PM.

It's a bunch of us women, all of their children, and the adult visitors all in one room. It is very noisy. We are not allowed to leave the room. I have to get permission to go to the bathroom. It is very noisy. It's good to see someone.
And it is better than staying here. But it is not a good situation.

I like to leave the visit early and go get back on the van. If I don't, I won't get a good seat for the ride home.

Saturday, May 5, 2007

Court Date

My court date has been postponed again and again for over six months - nearly nine months by now. I just want to get it over with. I'm pleading guilty. How long can this take?

It's a DUI. Hasn't the county prosecuted a DUI before? I could have served my sentence and have everything over by now. Instead my attorney asked for another continuance. This is insane. I can't take much more of this. I want to die rather than go through this.

I just want it over.

Saturday, April 21, 2007

Demeter Eligibility

My stay here at Demeter is paid for through the Community Service Board (CSB). I don't think this is a good fit for me. But it is a place to stay for now while I am waiting to go to court for my DUI.

The barrier to entry here is low. Here are the requirements:


All clients must be:

female, over 18 years old
ambulatory, able to maintain self-care without physical handicap(s) that would hinder mobility in the program
have a primary diagnosis of chemical addiction
able to maintain appropriate behavior in an intensive, structured facility
in good physical health, other than symptoms of withdrawal
We accept self pay and most major insurance carriers as well as CSB, DSS, DJJ, CSA funding.

Thursday, April 5, 2007

Demeter Facts

I really need a dual diagnosis treatment facility. I do not think Demeter supports this. Here is some of what they have to offer:

Residential treatment facility
Open year-round, 24 hours/day
Addresses the special needs of women, including expectant mothers and mothers with children
Diagnostic substance abuse assessment
Individualized treatment plans
Individual and group counseling
Child care component
Family education and therapy
On-site life skills classes, resume/job workshops and tutoring
Random drug testing
Continuity of care from intake to treatment
Transitional program available

Monday, April 2, 2007

Demeter House

I'm staying in a place called Demeter House. Here is what they say about the place.

The Demeter House, a 20-bed home located in Arlington, Virginia, serves women, including those who are expecting, have custody of their children or the ability to regain custody following successful treatment.

The program is designed to not only break the cycle of addiction, but empower clients to re-enter the community as responsible citizens and reduce their reliance on government support.

To meet the special needs of women, treatment is comprehensive and based on a disease model approach. Typically, treatment runs for about three months, through length of stay is based on an individual's progress and clinical condition. Certified counselors employ a traditional 12-step model based on Alcoholics and Narcotics Anonymous and individual and group counseling. Counseling is behavior management-focused, with each client learning how to assume personal responsibility for her recovery.

Our program also address the social and family barriers that have traditionally prevented mothers from entering and remaining in treatment. Up to two children, ages 12 and younger, can live with their mother while she is in treatment.

Sunday, April 1, 2007

Vanguard Works!

Vanguard makes a claim that they are successful in treating clients with substance abuse problems. They claim:

Vanguard has a 65 percent completion rate, exceeding the nation average.

In addition, more than 70 percent of Vanguard clients who complete treatment remain in recovery, when surveyed 90 days following graduation.

We watch our graduates change old habits to rejoin their families, jobs and communities and lead productive, fulfilling lives.

The program also offers a comprehensive array of services and support to help female clients achieve long-term abstinence from drugs and alcohol. Among the services are resume writing workshops, individual tutoring, workshops in personal/home budgeting, nutrition and meal planning and other life skills.

I just don't see it. Besides, the numbers are skewed. To achieve the statistics they eliminate the people who fail the worst.

Tuesday, March 27, 2007

Where is my Attorney?

I have a court appointed attorney. I've not been able to speak to her. She won't return my phone calls, nor does she contact me. I wish I had some idea of what is going to happen to me for my DUI, my third one in three years.

If I was in another state I might be able to get alternate sentencing such as a treatment program. I might get a legislatively mandated six month in jail. I might be able to get my charges reduced and get three months in jail. In any event, I won't be driving anytime soon.

I just can't go to jail. I'd rather die.

Monday, March 26, 2007

Hello, I'm Nancy. I'm an alchoholic

Welcome to my blog. I'm Nancy, and I'm an alchoholic. While I do go to AA, I'm probably either in an inpatient treatment program for my additiction, or in jail for my DUI. I've not been to sentencing in court, but since this is my third DUI, it does not bode well for me.

People ask me why I drink. I drink because I am an alchoholic. I drink because my body craves alchohol on a cellular level. I get drunk because I pick up a beer. To not get drunk, all I have to do is not pick up a beer. I don't drink because of you. It's not your fault.

I have a disease; like as if I had measles. People with measles get red bumps. Parents, friends, and associates don't cause the red bumps. Measles causes the red bumps. Alchoholics drink because alchoholism causes them to drink.

Tuesday, March 20, 2007


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My Story - How I grew up to become and alchoholic.

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Monday, March 19, 2007

First Post

I've just created this web page blog site. I'll have to start adding content to it soon.

I've never created a web site before, and I've never blogged before. This is all new to me. I'm not sure what I want out of this. Maybe it is therapy, like a diary. Maybe my story will help someone else. Maybe it is by talking about my problems that I find relief from the demons that hound me.

Nancy Over The Rainbow is about how my life is, as M. Scott Peck would say, hard. Life is hard. Hopefully by accepting this basic truth I can learn to be sober. My hope... my dream... my belief is that somewhere over the rainbow skies will be blue. Life can not always be this miserable. Let me find that magic land that exists, over the rainbow.

Sunday, March 11, 2007

Link Love to Some Friends

This is some quick and dirty link love to several of my friends just so they can get a little higher Technorati Authority ranking.

Saturday, March 10, 2007