Anxiety Rising

I finally got my canteen and I have been eating a bunch of it.

I went to ACT. I had many more or one continuous anxiety attack.

Mrs. Shade sent me to the 11th floor. It is for the crazies.

They give me ativan and the attacks are going away and I sleep a whole bunch.

I have been on the 11th floor for four days now. I talked to the doctor here and I told her I am ready to go back. I even participated in a group. She called Mrs. Shade but she hasn't come up to see me.

It is Friday. Mrs. Shade came up and I get to go back tonight or Monday.

The doctor made sure I can go back tonight.

It is Saturday and I am back in ACT. They sent me back at 12PM. I am scared because the anxiety attacks are starting again. I hope they go away - if it is this Monday and I am still having the attacks I will try to hide them.

I've done a good job and no one suspects them.

It is Wednesday and they have pretty much stopped.

Off Lockdown

We are off lockdown. I couldn't exercise for two whole days. Turns out it wasn't MSRA after all. The girl had an ingrown hair under her arms. She is fine.

Today my walking buddy was taken to Stafford for court. Hopefully they will bring her back. I already miss her. I feel bad for her cause she will have to sit all weekend down there and it is not only a nasty jail but she is a snitch and she is scarred to be in jail down there.

I had two anxiety attacks yesterday. They were really bad ones. I walked them off. MY counselors thought I handled them well.

I am going to ACT on Monday. My days will be full then. I won't have to stay in my cell all day. But the good thing is after I finish the four months of ACT I should be released. My judge said to come back and see her after I complete ACT and she lets everyone go. It should happen in January. Last Xmas I spent at Demeter House treatment center. This year I guess I am staying in jail.

Bloggerwave

There is a new pay you to blog service out there. Based in Copenhagen and beginning operations in March of 2007, Bloggerwave is paying bloggers for writing articles about their advertisers. There are three categories of opportunity, Review, Buzz, and Opinion.

It looks like Bloggerwave caters to new blogs as in their FAQ they talk about what a blog is and how to set one up. It only took a few days for them to approve my blog. I'm new and there were three opportunities for me on the first day. They had an opportunity for Coke Zero (though it required video), for Bloggerwave itself, and for a company that provides database information on different companies.

Hotel Reservations

I'm once again looking out my window from my jail cell and thinking that there must be a better place to be staying than here in the Arlington County "Hilton". I do have a private room. I've got a window with a view.

I live like a Queen. I'm awoken each morning as the sun rises and brought my breakfast in bed. All I have and need is within a few feet of where I sleep. I have dozens of uniformed servants who attend to my every need. But still, I long for something else. Maybe something with a bit more freedom.

I want to tell you what I found in my quest for more. I found this website that offers Hotel Reservations and much more. They have hotels, motels, resorts, and more. They also have flights, cars, vacation rentals, vacation packages, and cruises. They offer what you need for beach hotels, family fun, gambling, golf, and spa.

When it comes to beaches, they have Corpus Christi from $69. Jacksonville from $69. Monterey from $100.

They have the Best Western Beachcomber Beach resort and hotel in St. Pete Beach, Florida from $89. The Resort Is Situated On More Than Five Acres Of Lush, Tropically Landscaped Gardens And Has Its Own Private Beach. Guests Can Unwind At The On-site Player's Sports Bar & Grille And Watch Sports On Three Wide-screen Televisions. This Resort Features Two Crystalline Pools Nestled Among The Expansive Gardens. Music Lovers Flock To The Live Music On The Adjacent Beach. Other Convenient Amenities Include A Small Fitness Room, Game Room, Wireless Internet Access And Guest Laundry.

The website also has a activities search that lets me know that if I am in the area what I can do. For instance for St. Petersburg the site tells me I can also visit Universal theme park as well as Busch Gardens, Seaworld, and other places I have not heard of such as Nature's World, Captain Memo's Pirate Cruise, and Wild Waters Park.

Try out the site now.

Walking Like A Caged Animal

My old roommate from general population got out last Saturday and now she is already back. She was out for three days and got picked up for drinking again. I see her in the other section with a really puffy face (from the alcohol) and walking like a caged animal.

Last night my new friend, April, made burritos using ramen noodles and cheese. She gave me one and it was good.

We have decided to treat each other every week with our food.

April is turning out to be a good friend. We walk an hour a day in the rec yard. And we talk a lot.